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Meg Rosoff

How I Live Now

Meg Rosoff - Author
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Book: Paperback | 129 x 198mm | 224 pages | ISBN 9780141318011 | 30 Jun 2005 | Puffin | 12+ years
How I Live Now

It is very rare in contemporary literature to come across as strong a narrative voice as fifteen-year-old Daisy in this really incredible novel, that will appeal to adults and children alike. Daisy comes from America and thinks she knows all about love. Her mother died giving birth to her, and now her dad has sent her away for the summer, to live in the English countryside with cousins she's never even met.

It's there she'll discover what real love is: something violent, mysterious and wonderful that can take you by surprise at any time. In England her world will be turned upside down and a perfect summer will explode into a million bewildering pieces.

How will Daisy live then?

You can find out in this brave and assured debut novel that follows a strong, likeable, precocious and above all sympathetic teenager. In a world eerily devoid of adults, the kids do more than well at looking after themselves, and each other. They form bonds that will never be reversed and open up a whole new realm of possibility for each of them. This is an outsider's view of an England torn apart by war and the way she deals with that in order to survive. This is a story of love above all else and is a classic in the making.

 

Meg on her latest book, Just In Case
 
Your debut novel How I Live Now was a phenomenal success. Did this hinder or help the writing of the dreaded second novel?
I had some very good advice after writing How I Live Now, which was to finish my second book before the first book came out.  I didn't quite manage that, but I did get a first draught written.  Then the week How I Live Now came out I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and one of the few advantages of that was that it slammed everything else in my life into perspective.

Which doesn't mean I didn't worry about the reception Just In Case would get, but I couldn't exactly treat it as a life or death issue.  That year gave me a kind of 'one foot in front of the other' philosophy towards most things, including writing. Just In Case didn't come nearly as easily as How I Live Now, but I just kept plugging away until (about 50 draughts later) it came out right.  Of course, after 50 draughts, I had no idea whether it was any good or not.  As we used to say in advertising, "it ain't funny till everyone laughs."  So I'm waiting to see if everyone (anyone!) laughs.

Just in Case is about a boy who is convinced that Fate is out to get him. Why did you decide to explore the idea of fate?
Is anyone NOT obsessed with the idea that life can pivot around a single moment or event?  I've instinctively collected those "pivots" over the years, news stories about the tourists who were struck by lightning and found reduced to ash under a tree in Hyde Park, or the child who died falling off a swing, or the man who won the lottery, bought the Maserati he'd always wanted, and then drove it off a cliff a few weeks later and died.  Fate is chaotic and unpredictable, I don't believe there's any order or pattern to it (you might guess that I'm not a terribly religious person...).  I believe that the idea of fate as a conscious or directed force is a kind of madness, or perhaps the result of a depressive delusion.  (And of course, as the character of Fate points out in Just In Case, he isn't all bad.  Life can pivot in amazingly positive ways too.)

If you were to reinvent yourself in order to escape fate in the same way that David does in the novel, how would you like to reinvent yourself?
I suppose I have reinvented myself over the past few years - in the opposite way to Justin. I've spent most of my life trying to wear a persona that didn't quite fit and when I started writing books, it was like finally becoming the right person. Though of course that doesn't answer the question. I think I'd reinvent myself as a Tibetan yak herder and live in a yurt in the high plains in the Himalayas.  That would be perfect.

Just in Case evokes the spirit of Richard Kelly's cult film Donnie Darko. Did this film have an influence on your writing or did other films or books have a greater influence?
I loved Donnie Darko though I'm not sure I entirely understood it (did anyone?).  Donnie Darko was a strange disaffected teenager, as is Justin, but Justin's madness is more specific - something happens that makes him realize suddenly how terrifying the whole structure of human existence is, and he has to find a way to live with that realization.  I've started other books with a specific poem or song in mind (How I Live Now was originally based on a Talking Heads song called Life During Wartime), but Justin emerged from deep inside my brain - the place that tells me how lucky any single person has to be to get through any single day intact.

You have an unnerving ability to climb inside the mind of a teenage protagonist and get it just right. Why do you think you understand the workings of a teenage mind so well?
It's not from observing teenagers, it's from being one. Like many other people of my generation I don't think I ever really bothered to grow up. I wasn't ever really a proper teenager until I was about 19, and maybe I got a bit stuck there, because it seemed to go on and on. I'm not proud of this, but then, who gets over all this stuff at 19 anyway?  The kind of lack of clarity about the world that Justin grapples with is something most of us struggle with our entire lives.

Just in Case is written in the third person as opposed to How I Live Now which was in the first. Did you find this easier or more difficult?
I find the third person much more difficult to write.  It's like directing a play with a whole cast of characters as opposed to producing a one man show.

With first person you just crawl inside one person's head and watch the world unfold around that person, see what they see, interpret as they  would interpret.  Trying to organize a whole bunch of characters all running around an imaginary landscape, each with his or her own story, is my idea of hell.  I need a sheepdog to keep them all from running off into other books.

What are you writing next?
I'm working on another novel called The Dark Ages about two boys in the 1960s - one at a miserable minor boarding school and the other living on his own in a hut on the beach.  It's about falling in love (as usual) and the kind of deep friendships that form with members of the same sex when you're about 15.  It's also about gender, and all those precise ideas about what men and women should be, as opposed to all the blurry reality of what they are.  First person again, so no sheepdog required.

You are an American who has so far only written novels with a UK setting. Any plans to write about your home country?
I've been away from America for 17 years now and it's becoming something of a foreign place to me, though many of my friends back in America feel pretty much the same way.  I like writing about England because I have a foreigner's distance and a resident's sympathy for life here, unsullied by all the emotional baggage of a native.  I'm not sure I can write about America for the same reason I'm not sure I can write about adults - I have no critical distance on either place.


Published in August 2004, How I Live Now is a story of love, chaos and grief told through the eyes of 15-year-old New Yorker Daisy. Get to know Meg now with our quick fire questions.

Who or what always puts a smile on your face?
My daughter.

What are you reading at the moment?
Straying attention means I’m reading Gertrude Jekyll The Making of a Garden, Sienese Painting (1278-1477) by Timothy Hyman, and The Great Fire by Shirley Hazzard – at alternate sittings.

Which author do you most admire?
I admire explorers like Maurice Herzog or Wilfred Thesiger – climbing mountains or crossing the empty quarter of the Sahara with nothing but dates and camel vomit to eat, and then writing it down.

What’s your earliest memory?
A nightmare about a gorilla.

What is your greatest fear?
Not being able to breathe.

How would you like to be remembered?
I don’t think I care.

Have you even done something you’ve really regretted?
I regret having hurt people.

How do you spoil yourself?
Sleeping.

What’s your favourite word?
I love the sound of ‘assuage’.  Deeply ironic, given my personality…

Who do you turn to in a crisis?
My husband.

What makes you angry?
Cruelty and stupidity.

Have you ever had any other jobs apart from writing?
Hundreds.  Mostly in and around publishing and advertising but I’ve also had jobs escorting criminals to court, cleaning animal cages, and as deputy press secretary for the democrats in NYC.  I’ve been fired five times for having a bad attitude.

What’s your worst vice?
Impatience.

What are you proudest of?
My husband and daughter.

Where do you write?
In a tiny office with a balcony at the front of the house, overlooking the street so I can spy on the neighbours.

Where’s your favourite city?
London to live in.  New York, Venice, Rome, Chicago to visit.

When was the last time you cried?
I always cry at the cinema.  I cried buckets in The Barbarian Invasions.

One wish; what would it be?
World peace (how can it be anything else?).

Did you enjoy school?
I loved it all the way through to university.  Then I was distracted, often disappointed, and bored.

'That rare, rare thing, a first novel with a sustained, magical an dutterly faultless voice. After five pages I knew she could persuade me to believe almost anything' Mark Haddon, author of The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time


'Fresh, honest, rude, funny. I put it down with tears on my face' Julie Myerson, Guardian


'Assured, powerful, engaging...you will want to read everything that Rosoff is capable of writing' Observer


'An unforgettable adventure' Sunday Times


'A crunchily perfect knock-out of a debut novel' Guardian


'Readers won't just read this book, they will let it possess them' Sunday Telegraph


'The best children's novel for adults since The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time' Time Out


'How I Live Now is outstanding' The Times


'It already feels like a classic, in the sense that you can't imagine a world without it' New Statesman

'How I Live Now is the book everyone over twelve should read this summer...it's a classic in-waiting' TES

'It really stuck with me. I dreamt about it afterwards' Sunday Express


'Startlingly good...beautifully written, marvellously original. Yes, How I Live Now really is that good' Irish Times

1

My name is Elizabeth but no one's ever called me that. My father took one look at me when I was born and must have thought I had the face of someone dignified and sad like an old-fashioned queen or a dead person, but what I turned out like is plain, not much there to notice. Even my life so far has been plain. More Daisy than Elizabeth from the word go.

But the summer I went to England to stay with my cousins everything changed. Part of that was because of the war, which supposedly changed lots of things, but I can't remember much about life before the war anyway so it doesn't count in my book, which this is.

Mostly everything changed because of Edmond.

And so here's what happened.

2
 
I'm coming off this plane, and I'll tell you why that is later, and landing at London airport and I'm looking around for a middle-aged kind of woman who I've seen in pictures who's my Aunt Penn. The photographs are out of date, but she looked like the type who would wear a big necklace and flat shoes, and maybe some kind of narrow dress in black or grey. But I'm just guessing since the pictures only ever showed her face.

Anyway, I'm looking and looking and everyone's leaving and there's no signal on my phone and I'm thinking Oh Great, I'm going to be abandoned at the airport so that's two countries they don't want me in, when I notice everyone's gone except this kid who comes up to me and says You must be Daisy. And when I look relieved he does too and says I'm Edmond.

Hello Edmond, I said, nice to meet you, and I look at him hard to try to get a feel for what my new life with my cousins might be like.

Now let me tell you what he looks like before I forget because it's not exactly what you'd expect from your average fourteen-year-old what with the CIGARETTE and hair that looked like he cut it himself with a hatchet in the dead of night, but aside from that he's exactly like some kind of mutt, you know the ones you see at the dog shelter who are kind of hopeful and sweet and put their nose straight into your hand when they meet you with a certain kind of dignity and you know from that second that you're going to take him home? Well that's him.

Only he took me home.

I'll take your bag, he said, and even though he's about half a mile shorter than me and has arms about as thick as a dog leg, he grabs my bag, and I grab it back and say Where's your mom, is she in the car?

And he smiles and takes a drag on his cigarette, which even though I know smoking kills and all that, I think is a little bit cool, but maybe all the kids in England smoke cigarettes? I don't say anything in case it's a well-known fact that the smoking age in England is something like twelve and by making a big thing about it I'll end up looking like an idiot when I've barely been here five minutes. Anyway, he says Mum couldn't come to the airport cause she's working and it's not worth anyone's life to interrupt her while she's working, and everyone else seemed to be somewhere else, so I drove here myself.

I looked at him funny then.

You drove here yourself? You DROVE HERE yourself? Yeah well and I'M the Duchess of Panama's Private Secretary.

And then he gave a little shrug and a little dog-shelter-dog kind of tilt of his head and he pointed at a falling-apart black jeep and he opened the door by reaching in through the
window which was open, and pulling the handle up and yanking. He threw my bag in the back, though more like pushed it in, because it was pretty heavy, and then said Get in Cousin Daisy, and there was nothing else I could think of to do so I got in.

I'm still trying to get my head around all this when instead of following the signs that say Exit he turns the car up on to this grass and then drives across to a sign that says Do Not Enter and of course he Enters and then he jogs left across a ditch and suddenly we're out on the highway.

Can you believe they charge thirteen pounds fifty just to park there for an hour? he says to me.

Well to be fair, there is no way I'm believing any of this, being driven along on the wrong side of the road by this skinny kid dragging on a cigarette and let's face it who wouldn't be thinking what a weird place England is.

And then he looked at me again in his funny doggy way, and he said You'll get used to it. Which was strange too, because I hadn't said anything out loud.


 


Guardian Children's Book Prize: Winner 2004

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